Beautiful Disaster

Uhm...I suck at updating, guys.

I apologize a lot for that up front.

I just got home from my cruise and went straight into drill week with band.

But, it was PHENOMENAL!!!!!!

It taught me A LOT about life, God, and myself.

As I looked out over the ocean (which I did quite often), I saw the vastness of God.

It made it that much harder to understand how the Creator of all the wonderful things I saw and experienced could desire a close relationship with me.

I tend to fight against that love, because I never feel worthy of it.

Which is true; no matter how hard I try I'll never be worthy of His amazing love.

To Him, though, that doesn't matter.

He looks past my flaws and works in my life in so many awesome ways.

I felt like, even though I didn't really try, I drew closer in Him and gained a deeper understanding of Him.

We were talking in youth Wednesday about how, while we may be living for Christ 100%, bad stuff still happens in our lives.

We often turn against Him at the first sign of struggle or trial.

I've been very guilty of that many times.

I'm learning that I'll never understand why bad things happen to us as Christians.

That's where faith comes in.

We have to trust that God will be there to pick us up when we can't stand on our own.

Trusting God is my biggest difficulty.

I can never seem to let God control my life.

However, I know He has AMAZING plans for my life.

They are so much better than anything I could ever come up with on my own.

He ALONE knows what's best for our lives.

-Kati