Reality Check

So...since my last update, I've gone to a TFK/Kutless concert (phenomenal!!!!), started D-groups, began my junior year of high school, and performed in the first football game of the year.

For the most part, all of it's been pretty good, except being sick a lot.

But, God has shown me so much about life lately.

We've been talking in youth about what it means to be authentic, not just with our faith but with life in general as well.

I was journaling about this Thursday during English, and I saw that it's a really hard concept for me to grasp.

I really don't want people to see how broken and messed up I am.

But, I think God wants me to lay out all my cards on the table.

The brokenness, the messy parts, the good things.

Everything, put it all out there and see what He'll do with it.

Because He knows what He's doing.

A lot better than what I know.

I say this in like every post, but His plans are ASTOUNDING!!!!!

They're so much better than anything I could even fathom.

It's hard for me to let go of control and let Him do what He wants.

But, I'm really trying to just let Him have His way in my life.

He's brought me this far, and He's set me free from all the chains that have held me down.
Now, I haven't totally set myself free yet, but I'm praying that He'll help me see that I don't have to be perfect to deserve His love.

It's hard for me to accept sometimes.

I'm just learning how to let go of my past.

Also, He's given me some of the most WONDERFUL people to support me in every aspect of my life.

I seriously don't know where I'd be without them, and I know that I want to be that kind of person to others in my life who may be struggling.

I've learned so much for every single one of them, and I'm so blessed to have them in my life.

Don't lose faith; God has a plan for every good and bad thing in life.

-Kati