Life As I Knew It

Wow...I SUCK at updating.

I seriously thought it had only been a few weeks since I updated, but instead I saw that it's been nearly a month.

For that, I apologize.

But, the last few weeks have been chaotic, stressful, exhausting, but completely life-changing.

I've had a lot of rough patches, but all of them have made me so much stronger, in my faith and in my life in general.

I've embraced my inner "hot chick" (thanks to my crazy-yet-amazing English teacher), which felt RIDICULOUS at first, but after I did it, I realized how much it really helped.

I'm insanely insecure.

A lot.

And I never see the things in me that everyone else tells me they see.

That whole experience helped me not to constantly critique myself like I usually do.

It showed me that I am able to let go of control, which to me seemed like such a foreign concept.

It'll take some time for me to implement that in all aspects of my life, but I feel like I'm definitely on the right track.

Fields of Faith was this last Wednesday night.

This was my 3rd year to go, and the last two have radically changed my life.

I expected no different from this one.

I was definitely NOT disappointed.

God worked in me so much, and it was an experience that I really needed to have.

He showed me that He's the only one who can give me the fulfillment that I've been trying to find in other things.

I know that the next chapter of my life will be rough, but I have God to help me stand against the temptation that the devil throws at me on a daily basis.

I've seen the temptation since Wednesday. 

But one thought has stuck with me.

I'm not who I was before that night.

Yeah, my surrendering may have been symbolic, and it would be quite easy for me to go get what I gave up.

But, God will help me to not go back.

Life as I knew it will never be the same.

-Kati