My Story

I don't know what it is about reading/writing/thinking about my story that scares the crap out of me.

It does, though.

And I think I've begun to understand why.

I don't like to think about the person I used to be and all the pain I've dealt with.

It sucks.

But, I've learned something through all of that.

GOD IS FAITHFUL!!!

Through every trial I've been through in my life, He's been the only constant.

I was thinking about that today.

I had a huge chunk of me ripped out recently.

I'm still kinda reeling from that.

I don't really understand what happened or why it happened.

But, I know that God has a plan for this.

It's just really hard for me to see that right now.

I've broken down completely in 2 of the 4 real classes I've had today.

Very rarely do I cry in school.

Kinda funny tangent off of one of those classes, my Contemporary American History teacher offered to let me play Angry Birds on his ipad (I guess in some attempt to make me feel better).

Sadly, I don't know how to play, but I got to listen to my ipod, which sufficed.

But, back on subject.

I know that it's going to be hard to get over it.

But, I know that I'm not alone in this struggle.
I've never completely understood why I have to go through so much crap in life.
The conclusion I've come to is that through our struggles, we're supposed to draw closer to God and go deeper in our faith.
How that works is so far beyond me.
But, He is so much bigger than ANYTHING I could ever face in my life.
I know that He's calling me to do something more than myself.
I just have to trust Him to do help me do that.

-Kati